Random Thoughts + Life Update + Rambling

Hi guys! Sooo I usually don’t do posts like this, but I thought it might be a good idea to give ya’ll a little glimpse into my life because THINGS ARE CHANGINGGG (and I’m trying not to freak out about it. Yo girl happens to be a bit of a creature of habit) but for the most part, all good changes. Exciting exciting exciting!

So if you follow me on Insta (tatum_morton) you might have seen my post a few days ago about how I’m starting my yoga teacher training next week and guys, I am PUMPED. Like I’ve never been so excited for something in my whole life. It’s kinda funny because when I started yoga a few years ago, everyone thought it would be just a little phase that I would grow out of. But the more I practiced, the more I fell in love with it and knew it was supposed be a big part in my life. Hence, yoga teacher training. I’m feeling allllll da feels: excited, nervous, anxious, ready to meet people, ready to try something new but mostly…excited. I can’t wait to find people who are into this whole health and wellness lifestyle that I am SO passionate about. I don’t feel like I’ve met my tribe of people yet, so I hope this experience will introduce me to some of my tribe members!

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I have biiiiig dreams for this yoga thing and I feel like this training is the first step. Eventually, I would love love love to teach yoga at an eating disorder treatment center. As some of you know, treatment was the first place I  got introduced to yoga. At first, I was not super down for it and had the “yoga is stretching” mentality. But once I got more and more into yoga, I realized that yes…some of it is stretching, but the other part is a kickass workout. And the BEST part, is the spiritual part of it. Guys, I am telling you…yoga has changed my life. The way I view the world, view myself, treat others, has completelyyyy changed since I started practicing. Oh and for someone who severely struggles with anxiety, learning about BREATHING has been a complete game changer. The fact that I have all that I need inside of me (breath, Jesus, power, peace, blah blah blah) has really helped lower my anxious and never-ending thoughts. Praise the Lord. And the yoga mat.

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Nexttttt….MY BROTHER GOT MARRIEDAnd I’m not just saying this because he’s my brother, but it was the BEST wedding I’ve ever been to. Beautiful, personal, and tons and tons of fun (maybe the alcohol had something to do with that?) I keep joking that it was the best night of my life and it wasn’t even my wedding lol. I think what made it so special is because of the relationship I have with Ty and Ry. To be completely honest, Rylee is the sister I’ve always wanted but never had. And trust me, we are sisters, complete with clothes sharing and bickering and all the stuff that sisters do. I’ve never been super close to my brother, which makes me sad, but I truly feel that Rylee has helped me and my brother get closer. I must admit, he is a prettyyy cool guy and I’m proud to call him my brother. It has been the coolest experience to watch them fall in love and finally take that step towards marriage. I was an emotional wreck the day of the wedding (imagine that lol) but it really was such a special night. I got the honor of making a lot of decorations for it so that was a fun way to be involved. If you need any wedding decos, hit meeee up. But yes, overall it was a spectacular night. Oh and I can’t forget to mention that I caught the bouquet! I mean, I do have a bit of the Morton competitiveness streak in me šŸ˜‰ My Dad immediately ran up screaming “NO NO NO” and my boyfriend stood in the corner, terrified. Good times, good times :’)

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Hmm…what to talk about next?! This is kinda vague but I feel like God is about to do some big things in my life. I don’t even know how to explain it, but I’ve been feeling the need for change, for movement, for transition. I’ve always wanted to travel and that urge is getting stronger and stronger by the day. I would love to go on a mission trip or a internship abroad or something like that. I just feel like this world is so big, so why shouldn’t we explore it?! Why shouldn’t we travel and spread The Word and love people and do things and have those experiences to look back on. I feel like I’ve spent these past few years of my life doing a lot of internal work with my recovery and all that. And you know what? I’m kinda done with that period of my life. That work had to be done and it was and now I know who I am and I’m on the path of recovery and I wanna LIVE. Go places! Meet people! Try new things! Eat new foods (God, I have waited SO long to not be scared of that) and LIVE MY LIFE.

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One more thing I wanted to touch on was the power of intention setting, manifestation, the law of attraction and all that good stuff. Your reality is a product of your thoughts. Think good things, good things will happen. Put out good vibes, receive good vibes. I know that sounds very yoga and woowoo to a lot of you, but I’m telling you, this stuff works. I write intentions like no other and practice meditation each and every day. So I urge you to write it out. Write what you want your life to look like in one year, two years, five years. What kind of person do you want to be? Where do you want to live? Make a dream board! Ahhh, these are my favorite things ever. So fun to make and even funner (not a word, I know) to watch come to life. A lot of what is happening right now are things that I have jotted down in my journal months ago. Like no joke, specific things have happened that I never would’ve dreamed could happen. Dream big, my friends. Dream big.

And that’s all I have for you today! Sorry if that was boring and kinda all over the place but that’s how I roll. I feel like I’m finally at a good spot in my life: confident in who I am, determined to reach my goals, and open to new experiences and new people coming into my life. This life really is such a beautiful thing. A crazy, complicated makes you wanna chop your head off thing….but a beautiful one as well. Grateful grateful grateful.

Have a wonderful day my little lovebugs!

Tate ā¤

YOU are the ocean

“You are not a drop in the ocean. You are the entire ocean in a drop.” -Rumi

I am one person in a state of 6.7 million, a country of 318.9 million, a universe of 7.1 billion. I am one person in oneĀ state out of fifty states, inĀ one country out of 196 countries. I am seemingly insignificant. Small. Unnoticed.

Or am I? Rumi argues that we are not just a drop in the ocean, but the entire ocean in a drop. We don’t just live in the universe; the universe lives in us. We resideĀ in the world, but the true world, the real world, resides in our soul.

“Stop acting so small. You are the universe in ecstatic motion.”

This entire concept of being small, yet large. Insignificant, yet significant. A piece of the world, yet the whole world. This completely blows my mind. It makes me look at the world differently and look at myself differently. It makes me wonder why we look to the world for fulfillment when the real place we should be looking at is inside ourselves. Our hearts, our minds, our spirits – this inner world that just so happens to live in the outer world.

This is why I like yoga so much. It challenges me to view myself in a different light. While society tells me I am small and imperfect and insignificant, yoga reminds me that I am whole and beautiful and complete. I am whole because I am me. I am whole because God is in me. Yoga is my way of connecting the two.

The Hebrew word forĀ breath is Spirit. In yoga, the focus is on your breath. It is your way of connecting with Ā yourself, connecting with the Spirit. Whether you call it God or Jesus or the Divine or Love; the name does not matter. We are connecting to something greater than ourselves; a force that connects us all universally, but knows us each of us by our own individuality. Breathe in the Spirit, breathe out the Spirit. Breathe in His grace, breathe out His praise. Breathe in love, breathe out hate. Breathe in your own world, breathe out the world we inhabit. Breath, spirit, connection. This is yoga.

As a Christian, Christ lives in me. Jesus, the Savior of the world, resides in me. If that doesn’t blow your mind, I don’t know what will. But I think that’s what Rumi was talking about. He believed in Divine love, of faith, of a force greater than himself. He believed in prayer and meditation and inner peace – the same concepts Christians believe. But to me, this quote directly relates to Jesus being inside my body, flooding my spirit with his grace and love and compassion. He is the ocean and He is inside of me. I am just a drop but because I have Him, I am the ocean as well.

There are so many bible verses I could bring up that relates to this, but I think Galatians 2:20 sums it up the best.

“I am crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I who live, but it is Christ who lives in me.”

“Crucified with Christ.” I die to myself so that Christ can live in me. The term “I die daily” that Christians often say – this is what it means. My desires, my sins, my selfishness – I die to these things so that Christ’s love, Christ’s grace, Christ’s compassion can live in me.

“And it is no longer I who live, but it is Christ who lives in me.”He’s IN me, people! His home is my Spirit. His Spirit joins with my Spirit. How, you ask? Through breath, through connection, through mediation. He pours out of me so that others can see him THROUGH me. My words, my actions, my thoughts – I pray that they are always a representation of me. Though I am only a drop in the ocean, I have the entire ocean in me. May everyone I come in contact with be able to seeĀ this Ocean, this Savior, Jesus Christ, inside of me.

There’s a song I love and the lyrics go something like this. “Let them see you in me. Let them hear you when I speak. Let them see you when I sing. Let them see you, let them see you in me.” That song is my battle cry, my last prayer, my final breath. I have so much inside of me – so much love and light and peace. I want others to experience it as well! I want others to feel it as well. I want others to experience this ocean as well – wave by wave, sinking deeper and deeper into the love of the Divine.

Which brings me to another lyric. “If His grace is an ocean we’re all sinking”

We can’t comprehend God. He is too big, too large, too magnificent for words. He is the ocean after all. And even the ocean on this Earth has not been fully discovered. We have only explored 5% of this world ocean. FIVE PERCENT. There is a whole new world out there, a whole undiscovered space of water and mystery and beauty. If something on Earth like the ocean can’t be fully described or discovered, how could God be?

That’s why we’re sinking. Sinking in his grace, his love, his compassion. Sinking deeper and deeper into the Soul of who He is. The more we find out, the more we love Him. The more we read and study and discover, the more we want to be like Him. We are drawn to Him like people are drawn to this worldy ocean – for it’s peacefulness and beauty and mystery. For the way it makes us feel small, yet large, Insignificant, yet significant. A piece of the world, yet the whole world.

“You are not a drop of the ocean. You are the entire ocean in one drop.” -Rumi

Tate